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Wanting both the cake and the empty stomach, with equal conviction.
means Holding two opposing feelings about something at the same time, so you genuinely can't pick a side.
from Coined by psychiatrist Eugen Bleuler around 1910 from Latin ambi- (both) and valentia (strength) — literally pulling with equal force in two directions.
Not apathyAmbivalence means caring twice, not caring zero.
Bleuler's other wordHe also gave psychiatry the term schizophrenia.
Common slipPeople misuse it to mean indifferent or unbothered.